Even with all of this hope, I am incredibly lonely, not just for anyone, but for Jack. I wonder if I can EVER have that kind of love for another. There's a temptation to try to fill the void with someone.
Would it be fair to another man to have him follow the love of one's life? It seems it would be tempting to compare one to the other. After a lifetime of being together and sharing the intimate connections of building a life together: of developing trust; of children; of work; of good and bad experiences; large and small struggles; illnesses; brushes with death; days to months of recovery; grasping an understanding of internal struggles and haunts of childhood troubles; dreams fulfilled or not; accomplishments; learning each others preferences of daily living and relationships; gathering friends of both; all of the countless and nameless day-to-day aspects of life, can another person bring a loving trusting enjoyable relationship this late in life?
If it comes, Tomorrow's another day--One Day at a Time....
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